I started this blog years ago... just for family. A way to keep far away family up to speed. Over the years it turned into something a bit more. A creative outlet, a ministry, a way to financially help our family, a place to make new friends, a community.
And through the years I discovered so many things.... that through social media, blogging, Instagram... the Lord can be glorified. For as much evil and darkness that there is in this world and through social media. There can be just as much good.
My prayer through my blog is that Christ would be glorified. In every aspect of my life...whether the easy or the really hard. That through my story, others might come to know the One True God.
This past week has been a very hard one for our family. We had a special announcement that never got to be made... we were expecting sweet baby number five. I was still very early in my pregnancy... just a few days short of six weeks. We had known for two and a half weeks about this little one. Last Sunday I knew something wasn't quite right. A trip to the dr. on Monday confirmed my fears.
I had never experienced a miscarriage before. The sadness that you feel is a strange and aching one... mourning over the loss of your baby. A little one you will never get to hold or kiss. A life that you love more than you ever thought possible. But through all of that sadness and aching... there is one thing that I am certain of. My Lord is there to hold me up...to sustain me... to strengthen me. He is my Rock. He is my Shelter.
Through the week I had a handful of girlfriends and my mom texting and calling me. The common thread among all of these women was that they too had miscarriages. They understood the hurt and the ache. One thing that my mom told me that is so true and so wise is.... no matter how many kids you already have... no matter how early the pregnancy was... it's okay to be sad. It's okay to mourn. Because it was a LIFE. A precious life that is gone.
To you mothers who have been there... who are going through it now... who may in the future. Cling to Jesus. I am so thankful for His promise to us... eternity spent in heaven with Him. My heart is at peace knowing that my Lord is holding my sweet baby in heaven. He is good. And He is so faithful. So faithful.
If you don't know who Christ is... if you're not sure where you'll go when you die... be certain. Know without a doubt. I serve a God who has changed my life forever. I would love to share that same hope and assurance with you. My email is thevanillatulip (at) yahoo (dot) com.
This song has blessed me so much this week. I pray it blesses you as well.
"When I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay.
Lord, I need You, oh I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You"